I have been debating whether to post this for a while now, but I finally decided I’m going to be brave.
I’ve been working on self portraits of a different kind lately. I’ve shot boudoir sessions here and there, but I mostly don’t love the work I’ve produced from them. I’m happy with many of the individual shots, but the overall body of work doesn’t exactly reflect my vision. I realized I’ve been too worried about pleasing the client and I’ve let that crowd my creativity (pleasing the client is very important, don’t get me wrong. But sometimes you need a little more freedom and a little more trust to really put your best work out there. And I had never felt confident enough to push for it).
So I decided to take my self portraits there. Inspired by my own boudoir. I thought about just hiring a model and directing my own shoot, but sometimes I just had the urge to shoot, I had an exact vision, the light streaming through the window was perfect, and I didn’t have the time to plan ahead. So I just did it.I grabbed my tripod and started shooting. It turned into several days of shooting, when the time was right, when the light was right, and when I had lots of creative energy flowing. It also takes way longer because of all the chimping after a sequence of shots, back and forth from my posing to the tripod. And when the light wasn’t right I grabbed my lights and turned our apartment into a studio.
I wanted the images to be more about being confident, stylish, and comfortable. Less about showing skin in lingerie, and more about documenting the mood of beauty and confidence without affecting it. I also wanted it to have a tiny flair of fashion. A semi-boudoir shoot.
Enough explaining. Here are some shots. I included one in which Button, one of our kittens, made a surprise appearance. She’s so funny.